DREAM man

I have come to the conclusion that I might possibly be single for a very long time. And this is not a bad thing (although my family may disagree). However, I realized the reason I will stay very single for a very long time is due to the fact that men today are not up to my standards. So I formulated a list of things that my DREAM man would have to have or do. So here is a short list:

1). He needs to have a job. I refuse to date someone that does not have a job. How are you going to support me if you can't support yourself? Not happening.
2). He has to have a limit of one child by the time I meet him. I am still young and I don't want to be dating a guy and raising his child at the same time. One child I can suck up but more than that is just too much.
3). He has to have a great smile with nice, white teeth. I believe brushing one's teeth is part of personal hygiene. If he can't brush his teeth, he is definitely not kissing me.
4). He has to be taller than me... and a couple inches does not count. I need a guy to be taller than me even  if I wear 6 inch heels.
5). He needs to have taken an English class in the pass 10 years or at least talk like he has. I do not, I repeat, I do not want a guy walking up to me talking about, "Whats up boo?"... I don't want a guy texting me like this "Kall my fone" ...UM NO! 
6). He needs to be respectful to me, my family, and my friends. If he can't respect the people in my life then he can't be in my life.
7). If he has spent time in jail... its not happening.
8). He needs to appreciate the arts. Saying theatre or art is not a real career... big X for you!
9). He needs to appreciate women but not be a man-whore.
10). He needs love his momma.

Well thats it for now.

update on life. books. music. love.

I just finished off my junior year and it wasn't as great as I would have wanted, but it was still a good year. Um, hello SENIOR year?! I am starting to venture into other forms of theatre and its really exciting. I also got a job at a hair salon (so I can start saving for after graduation). I am hoping to move to NYC in the next few years. Don't worry friends, I am coming. Oh,  recently I also chopped all my hair off. It was so liberating. I think every woman should do it once in their life. I am just hoping a couple months from now I don't regret it. But as of now, I'm happy with it. 

Emily Griffin has made my summer reading complete. I am currently reading " Something Borrowed", a book I've had for six months but just got around to reading it. And it is fabulous. I refuse to see the movie until I am done with the book. (the book is probably better anyway) My next book will be "The Help".

So there is a lot of good summer music of right now. But as a super music fan, I have fallen in love with Beyonce's new song "Best I Never Had". It reminds me of an old 90's song and I LOVE it! This song is the story of my life. Urgh, if you only knew.

Um, my love life is non-existent.  Maybe when I'm 35, I will have the time and energy to dedicate to a relationship. Maybe there will be a few good men out there left for me. I see all my friends and their sloppy relationships and I don't have time for that. I'm trying to do something BIG with my life. So (for now) I am solo. However, that does not mean I will be denying forms of male interaction.  I still love me some men :)


So for now that is all...

What's important?

My senior year is slowing approaching and I have so many thoughts going through my head. I'm wondering whether or not I should be looking at grad schools. Or if I should be trying to do some local jobs. Its so frustrating because I see all my old classmates from high school and my previous colleges that have families now. In a weird way, knowing that so many people my age are starting families makes me want a family too. I want kids. I always tell my friends, "Oh no, I'm never having kids". But I know in my heart I will. I love taking care of people so I know I will have kids. I recently watched this movie called " Mona Lisa Smile" (which is a great movie btw). And it made me question what is really important. Is it important to have a career? Or is it important to have family? Most people would argue, that its important to have both. But I feel like both are so hard to do at the same time. You have to pick one or the other because if you try to do both its almost impossible to do a good job at both. I think its going to take a lot more soul searching but its just something that's been on my mind. There are so many amazing mothers in the world and I think I want to be one to someday.

Getting started...

So I am starting a blog. I got inspire to do this because a very good friend of mine lost her mother. Her mother used her blog to talk about her fears, her hopes, and her struggles. Now, that she has gone to a better place her blog is seen by her daughters and is used to bring peace, and possibly tears. But I think I read it and it gave me inspiration. I don't talk about what I am really feeling. I don't want anyone to know if I am sad or going through something. I rather just smile and pretend everything is great. But this woman, she was strong not because she held in all her emotions. I think she was strong because she wasn't afraid to let them out and say how she was really feeling. So now I started blog. This blog is going to be my forum to talk about how I really feel. Nothing left unsaid.

Oh and to the strong lady, who inspired me... I just want to say THANKS ;)