Friday, April 22, 2011

What's important?

My senior year is slowing approaching and I have so many thoughts going through my head. I'm wondering whether or not I should be looking at grad schools. Or if I should be trying to do some local jobs. Its so frustrating because I see all my old classmates from high school and my previous colleges that have families now. In a weird way, knowing that so many people my age are starting families makes me want a family too. I want kids. I always tell my friends, "Oh no, I'm never having kids". But I know in my heart I will. I love taking care of people so I know I will have kids. I recently watched this movie called " Mona Lisa Smile" (which is a great movie btw). And it made me question what is really important. Is it important to have a career? Or is it important to have family? Most people would argue, that its important to have both. But I feel like both are so hard to do at the same time. You have to pick one or the other because if you try to do both its almost impossible to do a good job at both. I think its going to take a lot more soul searching but its just something that's been on my mind. There are so many amazing mothers in the world and I think I want to be one to someday.